the good man doesn't drink 
and i've been drinking alone 
so what does that make me? 
my hands they always shake, 
and no one's callin my phone 
so what does that make me? 
and i know the kid with his guitar so drunk and anxious it's been done to death but tell me what hasn't, i'll try it. 
because i'm selfish enough to want to get better but i'm backwards enough not to take any steps to get there. 
 and when you realize it's a pattern and not a phase, it's what you've become and it's what yo
Fear Of Flying lyrics

Hey, I don't look back on all the things I've done
I've never looked for answers in a song
Ain't got no good ideas, I'm staring at the sun
Don't always look for comfort in a song

This is your one-way ticket so don't fuck it up
Your flight
u will stay, that's the ballgame. 
cause i don't got room in my life for anyone else. 
and i've driven away all the people that can help. 
and i still don't even know what i need to do to fix myself. 
woo! 
*super-clapping* 
and there's a clamp around my chest that tightens everytime i lapse into another sorry story... 
about my miserable collapse. a brown box i keep encased in glass and dust off whenever i want your pity. 
cause lately i've had to come to grips with scope and figure. how my problems stack up in a world two
Long Lost To Where No Pathway Goes lyrics

My star, I saw it high and far
At the parting of the ways
A light on the edge of the outer night
Like silver set ablaze
Where the round world plunges steeply down
But on the old roads goes
As an unseen bridge that on arches runs
To 
 steps from ruin. 
or maybe it's rapture. 
well either way i realize that my shits about as small as it could be but that makes me feel worse for even feeling this bad in the first place. 
cause there's a war starting soon and all the flags will be waving daniel's twenty year old friend will be ready, and willing, and waiting. 
he's a marine and he told me. 
and it makes me sad, really really fucking sad, but at least he'll act. 
i'll just bite my tongue and then say "daniel you wish him luck, i'll pray that he comes back f
Broken World lyrics

i walk alone in the darkthere's anger in my hurted heartno one will ever hear me screami'm living my broken dreamsmy life is turning into ruinsmy only friend a moving shadowi will be called the king of foolssilent screamsor mother's sake" 
and then i'll drink those thoughts away, i've gotten good at that. 
cause when you realize it's a pattern and not a phase it's what you've become and it's what you've become and that's what you will stay, that's the ballgame. 
oh-woo-hoo-o-o 
yeah when you realize it's a pattern and not a phase, it's what you've become and it's what you will stay... that's the ballgame. 
yeah when you realize it's a pattern and not a phase, it's what you've become and it's what you will stay... that's the ballgame.